i lose touch with everyone i care about
i know it's my own fault
because i drown myself in fictions
that will never come true
but they're all i have
so i cling to them and never let go
and when these fictions clash with reality
i realize that it was so fucking dumb of me
to believe that someday you will love me
you always say it's not so bad
well the thing is i hate everything about myself
the way i act, the words i say
i can't remember when i didn't feel this way
my head's a mess, i can't think straight
i tried to change but it's too late
you'll ask me
"but what if you died?"
and i will tell you
"i wouldn't mind"
so don't even try to make thing right
because we both know that
i'm just a waste of your time
i'm a waste of your time
i really have to stop
worrying so much
about people who don't give a fuck about me
it makes me sick
i wonder if i'll ever become the person i always wanted myself to be
but i only wonder doing nothing
and then i ask myself
"how did i end up here?"
buried with failed friendships
and regrets
what does it take not to repeat the mistakes i make?
cause i always find myself in the same old place:
my own bed where i lie
and try again to make myself cry
but nothing ever comes out of these bloodshot eyes
you'll run away and curse my name
cause i will always stay the same
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